Disappointment = the difference between the expected outcome and the actual outcome

Never ever will I expect that much from you so that I will not need to feel disappointment ever again. Never ever will I expect anything from anyone that really doesn't deserve it ever again. I have learnt. Being too nice just doesn't make sense anymore. All I wanted is to make sure you are happy. All I wanted is to not disappoint you and what do I get in return? Disappointment. Yes, I am. I don't think I will ever want to give you any opportunity to hurt me ever again. I'm just so sorry if I just happen to slip out of your life and shut you out. I'm so sorry.

A long bus ride to nowhere somewhat feels so therapeutic. It's like living in a dream, my own fairy-tale world for sure, where I'm the one with the charmed life. But someday somewhat somehow, I will need to stop dreaming, for my dream-maker will no longer be around.

I laughed tonight. For the first time after so long. Thank you so much.