1. I have just gotten a pay increment after 6 months of hard work..Not a lot - not really above or below my expectations..after working here, I have learnt and am still trying to manage my expectations..not to expect too much to avoid disappointments..

2. The Shanghai trip was awesome..had a wonderful time with my colleagues - felt that we had gotten to know one another better..took tons of photos..queued up for shanghai xiaolongbaos(!), drank Starbucks twice, figured out our way to Peace Hotel 和平饭店 in the night, went to some first river city near Shanghai..came back weary but satisfied.. :)

3. Labour day is coming and there will be 3 days of leave..Don't know where to go though..probably will stay here 'cos everywhere else will be so packed..just want to rest more..my colleague asked me whether I am going to sleep for 3 days..I just might you know? Haha..might be going back to work on May 1st though..

4. Am quite happy 'cos I spoke to B for an hour plus last night and this is because we haven't been talking much..though the entire conversation was just revolving around 1 main topic..which kinda upset me a little..but I know it's for my own good..but just that there was simply a tinge of coldness hanging in the air..which of course didn't make things better..sometimes it feels scary to know that I don't really know/understand B as much as i thought I do..

5. Sometimes when you start to weigh $$ and happiness, it will affect you a little..I think my roomie is the next person after my family to see me in my most vulnerable state..to see me waking up in the morning with swollen eyes after a bad night of crying, to see me trying hard to stop tearing when I tell her stuff..well, $$ can't buy happiness..haha..isn't it? When there's nothing worthy for me to stay on, I'll leave..

6. It isn't easy to break up with someone and to move on, is it? For every relationship I've been through, I am part of it. I was the female lead. How much of me do I have left to have to go through this entire process once again? To fall, trip and to try to get up on my own in the end. Every relationship requires a fair amount of time, effort and feelings. And it is supposed to require a similar amount of those to get over it and move on..and with each, my faith in love just gets little and little..

Being here makes me stop thinking more and I don't know whether it's a good or bad thing..

I'm going to SHANGHAI! Like finally..haha..well, as long as I haven't stepped into the plane, anything and everything can be changed. I might not even be going..

Well, I haven't been to Shanghai before..and I heard it's almost like Singapore..Lots of people, lots of entertainment spots etc..and it will be good to see TCM there! At least someone familiar!

I wonder how much have I changed, how much have I learnt. Am I more stable now? Am I able to confidently handle all the tasks given to me at work? Haha..I'm weird..I know I have the highest level of confidence when everyone else's diminishes..My colleagues were so impressed by my high level of confidence when I said that I've 101% faith in B; when I told them that I wasn't afraid of showing my boss our progress so far because I feel that we have done a lot...but when the center of attention is focused onto me, my confidence level dips to ground zero immediately..I need that kind of assurance from myself that I've nothing to lose, nothing to feel not-good about; for I've everything, isn't it?