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Title : The End of a Beginning
Someone once said that if my life can be documented, it will be written in the form of a very thick book. And with the many chapters a book has, this is probably one of the closest to the heart chapters of my life:
You didn't know, did you?
You picked me up and you made me very happy,
You made me believed that I could love and be loved once again,
You made me forget all the unhappiness which I once have,
How much I have looked forward to bed each night so that I could send my last message of the day to you,
You were my motivation to carry on each time I couldn't tolerate being here anymore,
You were the first person I have hoped to see when I returned to Singapore for CNY and during June,
You were so involved in my life, probably more than you thought you were,
How much you have made my life topsy-curvy when you left,
I didn't know how much I have loved you till you left,
You made me understand how much I have made you tolerated me and in return you have made me a better person,
You were, and still are, everywhere in my life and as much as I have wanted to forget all about you, you are still around, in every nook in every corner. I am still reminded of you everywhere and everything which I go or do. And now you have even invaded my life in china.
I'm sorry for being unreasonable and not understanding enough,
I'm sorry for not caring more and not asking more,
I'm sorry for thinking all about being happy,
I'm sorry for pushing you away,
I'm sorry for expecting too much,
I'm sorry for throwing tantrums at you,
I'm sorry for having you to have to ask me umpteen times why I was not happy with you,
I'm sorry for not noticing that we have grown apart,
I'm sorry for not letting you know how important you were to me before everything was too late,
I'm sorry for not asking you to stay,
I'm sorry for not wanting to do the things which you've wanted to do and insisting that we have to do the things which I have wanted to do,
I'm sorry for asking you to go because I didn't want you to spend your birthday here,
I'm sorry for leaving you bad memories about this place,
I'm sorry for wanting to break up with you each time when I couldn't take it anymore and to regret it each time round I did, I'm sorry for hurting you in any way which I have done so.
Love is very simple and it will still be. As long as there is love, we can get through anything and everything. With each breakup makes me more vulnerable and more skeptical towards love. But I will still want to believe in love, to want to love a person wholeheartedly and to give my everything. With that, I will still continue to believe, to believe that my happyeverafter fairy-tale will come one day. I don't know when it will be, but I know it will come.
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