the euphoric infatuation stage of a new relationship equals dangerous?? cos it dulls the pain but slow the healing? maybe not emotionally stable enough to handle the inevitable ups and downs that come with it.

but it feels so good. and cos there's no history to begin with. a distraction; keeping from having the need to experience the full extent of the emotional pain of the previous - a misguided attempt?

found so many substitutes in china that it seems unncessary to bring the originals over. bought lots of 3in1 coffee though...my one and only indulgence for now..no one, nothing is indispensible..beginning to accept the reality of that..i can be so easily be replaced in china and once i leave, i don't think they will remember my existance soon after ..that's why...............home is still the best..cos my family wouldn't not want me and my friends are (have to be) stuck with me of course no matter what..

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