Date : Thursday, January 29, 2009
Time : 3:00 AM
Title : :)

you're right to say it's good to experience certain unpleasant things in life. :)
hee..i think we grew up quite a bit right?
can't imagine myself thinking like that in the past!
of course we won't think like that in the past 'cos life has been too good for us.
we were lucky 'cos we experienced true friendships and nice guys whom hearts we break.
but as we grow up, bound to meet people that don't treat us sincerely with their hearts.
that's why we crumble 'cos never experience before.
but you're right..
lucky it was just a year plus and not 5 years for me to see what kind of person he is!
haha it's normal my dear if you still feel sad when you think of him sometimes.
after a while, you will realise it's just the events which happened that you feel sad about,
not him the person that you still haven't let go. :)
eh..i think so too..
of course will remember the happy times..
i think you can change career path and go and be counsellor! serious!
lol no la 'cos i experienced such feelings before also leh.
certain things i can't forget. actually part of me was pissed and affected.
but i decided it's not everything as long as i've tried my best.
you're right..i think the more pissed one is, it shows we're actually affected..
but i'm glad that you've learnt that it is not everything if you've put in your best! :)
that's true actually we are quite lucky at least we've friends that care about us truly.

for you're my life buoy till it lasts.

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Date : Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Time : 4:00 AM
Title : all about my boss!

conversation with dap:

not zz yet?
waiting for you.
wah...
don't know whether i should blog or not, got feel la.
can. i seldom have feel now.
but my feel is about my lifebuoy. am afraid that my blog will be too k-infested.
feel is like a fleeting cloud, lose it and you won't be able to catch it back.
words of wisdom. speaks like a wiseman ah you.

*******

he left today. felt a little lost without him around, not like he has always been around anyway. that time went tianjin without letting me know too. but just felt a little empty somewhat.



this is also a post all about my wonderful boss!

slept pretty late on saturday (4+ am) and woke up to my boss calling me early on sunday morning at 8am to go for breakfast at haji lane there. -_-"" but boss was nice enough to pick me up at cck when he stays at sembawang! heehee..

met up with k and a at bugis to proceed on to breakfast. me of course, wore my stylo-milo shades which boss said i looked like some taiwanese movie star la. what to do, eye bags were super horrible due to the lack of sleep..haha..

didn't manage to drink the teh halia which we wanted, had a sumptuous breakfast and we were sent home by boss once again. where to find such a boss like that!??! one who will ferry us and who will ask us to take his car when he won't be in town and meet us once he's back and give us morning calls to go for breakfast and one who will treat us as part of his family. my nicest nicest boss in the whole wide world, one whom i will never ever leave if i'm given a choice. i mean he will definitely be one of the factors which i will consider when i leave.

actually met up with my boss on saturday as well, as well as k. my boss wanted to talk to me but i didn't want to meet boss alone so drag k along..and stupid k, kept telling me that he will run away and leave me alone with my boss. as usual, coffee session at bugis tcc, which later on, boss requested for red wine as well. so the 3 of us were drinking red wine at tcc at 4+ pm. -_-"" i didn't finish my first glass. had dinner with boss at fish n co (bugis - the seafood platter was quite bad actually) - the 2 of us only - cos k had another appt and he left me with boss ultimately. was supposed to meet gil and may but they were busy. =(

my darling boss even promised to bring (read: drive) me alone to qingdao just to drink starbucks! and he says he will take 2.5 hours instead of the usual 3 hours to drive down..heehee..but as usual, he always promises but..............NATO..

but then nevermind, i have already told/informed (not ask mind you hee) k le, no matter what, we should go down to qingdao to drink starbucks! i am very determined to do it and you know how rarely i am so determined to do something! then i complained about k going back only on the 8th and not sooner. then he said i can go down with the rest and when he returns we will go down together again, or do i rather want to wait for him? he's just waiting for me to say it....................but i didn't haha.. you think qingdao so near and so fun that i want to go down so frequently?? grrrrrr.......

boss said i seem to have a greater goal behind the reason why i am still staying in yantai, though he doesn't know what it is. i told him not to worry about me, 'cos i will definitely go back to yantai. he said it's not a matter of whether i will go back, it is a matter of whether i want to go back or i don't want. left me pondering for a little while..

anyway, i was watching zhang ziyi's jasmine women 茉莉花开 on tv on friday i think..eh i like this kinda show..not bad. and i like the actor, liu ye. i think he's really a very talented actor. he acted in curse of the golden flower too as the useless first prince.

okay abit tired. nights!

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Date : Saturday, January 24, 2009
Time : 1:51 AM
Title : K is back! =D

he sms-ed me.............heehee..

i'm back..
wah..just touched down? going where now?
going for supper..
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u not going anywhere?
nope..just got home..pretty tired..haha..
oh ok..meet me tmr?
what time u going down tmr? my ex bf suddenly msn me..
what he msn you? i tom shld be going dwn at arnd 2pm.
said random stuff..then said i was more impt to him in e past but not now..then still tell me he's chasing a girl now and shld b quite successful..but cos i asked him la..
why did you go and ask sth like that? but he really is sth, dare to rub it to u in ur face.
yah..he's straight forward la..just now told me i gained weight..you still out?
wah lau u r not fat la. yeah i'm still out. u want to talk to me ah? hahah..





i haven't reply him leh........








updates:
erm he called me, not once but twice. haha. once at 2+ am when i didn't reply........but he was still out and i was watching some random show on tv. 2nd time when he got home at 3+ am and i just co-incidentally finished my show. then we spoke for quite a while in fact..........about random stuff too. heehee.

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Date : Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Time : 3:10 AM
Title : being e random me.

i realised i have rather random people reading my blog..
and so, being the random me, am thinking of keeping it private for the time being till i change my mind...just a thought..so well, let me know if you still like to read my blog...so that i can add you in.. :)

i went to bed pretty early tonight, before 1 am. had a very scary dream which woke me up and then i continued sleeping. and dreamt again...................about war (!??) and wu bai was my commander (!!! yah the taiwanese singer) and also about him (!!! what the..). yeap...........and then i woke up once again.......

so here i am..

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Date : Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Time : 1:35 AM
Title : silly us and great plans ahead!

you know how it feels to have great plans ahead?

i don't deny that it's still affecting me once a while. i'm still human after all and a real emo one to begin with..

with great plans ahead, like a chalet, cny visitings and life in yantai after this stop, and well, life after yantai too in fact. i am so motivated to take my 3 hours ride down to qingdao just to drink my starbucks on sundays, and i for sure will drag him along. heehee.

can't help but blog about us again. *grin*


conversation with A:

girl have K spoken to you yet?
no ah..never leh..about?
ooh..
he was telling me of wanting to have a chalet..
when?
1st feb..at sentosa..
really? so happening..
wahahaha..
so how you interested?
haha..okay ah..
i don't think i will stay over..but bbq yes!
okok..
K will be so sian lo..wahahhaha
i ask him later see how..
hahahha..why will he be sian leh..
he was like saying..
dont ask C along..so that he can spend more time with you..
hohohoh..damn funny la..
!!!
hahahhahahha
but i prefer C leh..
oops!
no la..
wahhahaha
ping piang!
ahhaha
C is my fav guy..
i know..
i always know..


conversation with C:

next time want to go jb again or not?
if go with you, then okay lor..
wah you so sweet..
sure kana bitten by alot of ants..
ya la sure with me ma..
wah..you sure know how to talk..
haha..
not as good as you la..


conversation with K:

damn sian la..
damn sian? wait la..i'm coming back soon la..
but coming back sg..is not really that favourable also..
true..
i can't wait to go back ynt..in a weird way..
can't wait to come back to yantai to me right? heheheh..
HAHAHA
yah lor..
or to GL
since you say so..
no la..
GL cannot la..
he always lie to me..
dont wanna believe him anymore..
wahhhh..so does that mean you believe me?
of course
but i go back you also not in ynt YET
sian lor..
yeah stupid visa thing
embassy opens on 2nd feb..just note the opening hours and get all the necessary documents
u follow me la..
then after that we go for a movie?
that's super earlyyyyyyyyy
it took me so much effort to go down and did mine..haha
thats true also..
see how lor..hee
okies..i know you damn lazy one..haha..
.
.
.
ehhh..but i am not that desirable meh?
cannot be right..
dammit..must get stronger perfume..hahaha
HAHAHHAHA
you are making me laugh lor..
got what..
F in love with you what..
come on la..F..
crazy ah you..
then what else you want..china is like that lor..
want you lor..
HAHAHAHA..

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Date : Sunday, January 18, 2009
Time : 2:23 AM
Title : untitled.

okay, for once, enough of "silly us" posts for the time being. but i just cannot help it at times..hee..'cos he's so sweet! =)

and i'm slightly annoyed with him la; but then, who am i to him man?

anyway, was flipping papers just now and my horoscope of the day reads:
"someone you like is paying you more attention than usual and it feels great. you may need to let him know how you feel in a strange way, but everyone will see the fun."

no leh, he's not paying me any attention at all! =(( don't even see him online lor.






introducing my first phone which i have bought from china! china brand k-touch........it's not too bad, and very affordable. just slightly below $200 and it's all yours. touch screen, comes with a stylus (but kinda useless cos pressing buttons on this phone has proved to be faster). what else does it has...........camera but not too good..oh, can put 2 sim cards and to be used at the same time too! now i have 3 phones to use..my old but trusty n70 (with a very good camera!), the hp phone, and this one. that day my colleague showed me his new phone and he bought it for S$700! so expensive..but it looks very pretty and has very good functions..

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Date : Friday, January 16, 2009
Time : 1:03 AM
Title : silly us and you.

went to count how many days i will be here............about 40 days man
good what
enjoy the time lah
it's running out le
time does run out...part of life
get used to it...hehehe
soon it will be yantai again
yah but you'll be in yantai wif me! isnt dat a bonus??
is that a bonus?
you'll be in yantai wid the rest as well what
dammit woman....
hahahahha
come on....don't be dejected
wont la
ok good
but u seem to give me the feeling that you are drifting away
somehw....
will drift back soon enough
and y am i saying this like as thou i am your bf like dat
hahahaha
friggin hell.....
even my bf doesnt say it
ohhhhh ok ok....bummer
.
.
.
so planning to stay till what time?
you are asking me as thou that the moment i leave...we'll meet up for dinner or smething like dat
haha
sure why not
but too bad we are so far apart
not even as near as the causeway
haha
stop playing with my heart.....
i have trained my heart to be as hard as a stone
as much as i can lah of course
well aiyah..dun knw lah...i have been feeling really restless, annoyed, frustrated, impatient, mentally tired, not to say physically aso....
.
.
.
ehhhhh you okay?
okay? meaning?
don't sound okay?
abit
not really not okay
but cos you suddenly never say anything
nothing lah...was just thinking about stuff
i dun knw how long i can tahan running both ways for engineering and PMT
i am feeling really drained



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you know that kinda feeling when you know that something bad is happening to someone? it's not premonition or deja vu..it's more that you know it's happening or has already happened..i don't think i have ever felt like that before, but strangely last night, i felt very weird..had this very weird feeling inside me and it was all the way there till i finally felt asleep...it's hard to explain..

and i hope you're okay.

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Date : Thursday, January 15, 2009
Time : 1:14 AM
Title : happy me!

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Date : Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Time : 1:46 AM
Title : silly us.

hello weiling ah........this is g*eorge....
oh.....hellooooooo...
so what are you doing now?
erm.....i'm going jb..
HUH..serious ah?
yah lor...hee..
going with?
erm...with C lor.....hee..
wah! serious!!!
haha..
yah lor..heeeee..
wah......tell me the truth..are you 2 seriously partor-ing?
hahahahhaa
no la..where got.......
really no?
dont have la.....
okay lor..you say dont have means dont have lor...
i heard that...you're not feeling well?
not feeling well?
yeah..as in not physically...but you know la..not feeling well huh.......
erm......
no la..where got..
you sure? i have my spies around one lor......
haiyah..it's just that hr has been quite.....





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eh so hw was ur date?
HAHAHAHA
hahaha
=P
alright
different people...different treatment lor
haiz
of all people of all timing
GL has to call
and i cant lie
willing to go ALL the way sial some more
HAHA
where got
all the way to M'sia mah
in S'pore..such a small island...
cannot...but M'sia can lor
haha
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.
.
your boss concerned about you leh
how come he will know leh
he told me that he can feel it
he knows u too well!!!
die alrdy lor you...he going to give you all his love and attention
hehehehehehe
where got
he wont feel it one lor
he where got so smart
he is lah...when you left he alrdy knw
wah
abit kua zhang right
not kua zhang....after one year tghtr...he alrdy knws each one of us character
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.
.
you missing us right
=P
missing u....
wah
hehehhe
surprised?
abit la
touched??
even the slightest bit?? anything??
touched huh
no leh
come on woman...show some heart!!
hahahhahah
okay let me think
friggin hell...still need to think
forget it lah...
.
.
.
if i were you
would have been so bored
i prob wont buy a tic and fly back
but it will be real hard to survive being alone
as in w/o us
you just have to include the "w/o us" part rite
hehehe
yes yes i do miss u all
especially you lor...
haiz
dun tell me that sentence didnt touch you...come on lah...i trying very hard leh
yah lor
very touched lor
now your just saying it out of pittance
aiyah ok ok...shall stop disturbing you
kinda bored thats all
chey
thought you really miss me
you dun hv to " thought"...i do miss you
.
.
.
actually i slacked for a very long time
as in
this time back
it has been a long time
it felt long enough
but yet nothing much has been done
well....not saying nothing much has been done
you feel happier rite?
most of the time
coz i not around mah
happy tots...keep happy tots
being with you very happy meh
.............
hahahha
dat was a sucker punch
=P
right thought the rib cage

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Date : Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Time : 1:20 AM
Title : silly us.

when are you going to be back in sg?
23rd jan lor.
that time asked you whether you want to see me at the airport you don't want..
yah what, someone has a big group of friends waiting for him what..don't need me around what..haha..
i go there for what......that time D asked me to go airport wait for him i straight away say don't want lor..at least for you, i did considered lor..but someone has a big group of friends lor..
yah lor..quite true..
-_-""!!
fine lor..
no la..even if my friends are there, i most prob will be eating with g*eorge, m*elvin they all..
really? then see how lor..maybe can join you guys..
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when are you going to return to yantai?
probably 8th feb lor..
huh...really ah..
come back earlier leh..
why?
don't know..come back earlier la..
give me a good reason to come back earlier lor..haha..
hmm..'cos i will be left with A and B.......then super sian lor.....no wait..i still have C...but C will most probably have his new girlfriend or girlfriend around..............oh no wait...i still have D......but then again......
nevermind la..you should have a good break..stay longer in singapore lor...
okay..then i will stay longer lor..
okay lor..fine..stay longer..
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.
come back earlier la.....

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Date : Monday, January 12, 2009
Time : 8:14 PM
Title : random.

i am actually going on a date tomorrow. Don't really feel much about it, but since it's the 3rd time that he asked, and the first two times didn't managed to realise due to some unforeseen circumstances (we agreed to meet but we didn't in the end); i obliged lor. hope tomorrow will be fun? i think it will be la, cos there's not much expectations? so no expectations = fun?

but then, you-know-who sure gets !!! if he knows about my date tomorrow and how much i've done to go on this date. hee.

anyway i spent today updating my resume. let's see how things go. =)

should i go for a run laters?

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Date :
Time : 12:16 AM
Title : feeling better.

okay la. the previous entry was posted on impulse.
there are still stuff which i can't bear to leave behind. just like when the eyes simply get lit up, bright and crystal clear, at the mere mention of you-know-who. *smile sheepishly*

it's growing, and getting more relevant.

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Date : Sunday, January 11, 2009
Time : 11:46 PM
Title : quite tempted.

my drafted letter:




Subject: Resignation Letter


Dear G*eorge,

I would like to inform you that I am resigning from my position as Project Executive for Yantai Raffles XX, effective January 12, 2009.

Thank you for the opportunities for professional and personal development that you have provided me during the year. I have enjoyed working for the company and appreciate the support provided me during my tenure with the company.

If I can be of any help during this transition, please let me know.



Sincerely,

Low Wei Ling

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Date : Saturday, January 10, 2009
Time : 2:38 AM
Title : feeling happy.

human emotions are as simple as they are complex.

i'm reminded of that slow dance with you when i heard kiss goodbye on tv tonight. for that brief moment, we did probably had that sizzling feeling there, but it just didn't continue from that point onwards.

i caught you looking at me that night, and how uncomfortable i felt 'cos i knew you were looking at me. or was i mistaken? and how i tried to look at you again to see whether you were still looking at me.

lately, i am having these mental blocks. like suddenly, i just simply cannot recall certain things, like whether did i send that sms out, whether did that person reply; this afternoon i couldn't remember phone numbers too. been having random mental blocks.

i can suddenly feel so motivated, yet discouraged soon enough.

someone once told me that being alone does not equate to loneliness, and vice versa. i can't recall who said that though. you may have people around you, but you may still feel lonely. k told me that he has been doing things on his own when he's in singapore. someone once told me that she's queuing up (alone!) to buy bak kwa when i called to ask what she was doing. as i grow older, i realised that there are things which you begin to do it on your own, not because you do not have the company, but you do enjoy being on your own. for example, you can have all the time in the world, at your own pace. someone once told me that eating alone is actually an enjoyment. someone once told me that watching a movie alone feels totally different. i am so tempted to go and watch one on my own one of these days. but then again, does watching dvds alone equates the same thing?

i came back to singapore, feeling a little empty inside me. especially when night comes. like what i have said, it really feels so different this time round as compared to the previous.

and i realised that sadness is addictive and it eats into you. and happiness, at the same time, is addictive too. someone told me that it is harder to contain happiness as it disappears as fast as it appears. someone also once told me that happiness is not a destination but a journey.

i realised that it hasn't been raining. did i miss the december rain? i remembered stopping one of my msn conversations once at night so that i could go out to the balcony to watch and feel the rain.

there are many reasons why people get together, because they are lonely and need that companionship; because they have grown to get used to having that person around; because they enjoy being with that person; because feelings get developed and they just grow from that point onwards and so on. i remembered reading somewhere that being together with another person is because you want to take care and protect that person. is that what we called "unconditional love"?

in life, there are many things which we may have done and regretted, as much as we try not to. someone once said that as much as we try to forget, as far as we try to run, as much as we try to avoid, we cannot deny the fact that it has happened.

humans by nature, are affectionate with feelings and emotions. feeling down and unhappy at times is inevitable. the presence of unpleasant memories is part and parcel of life.

to forget, is to run away from reality.


and i really hope that i'm beginning to heal. =)






human emotions are as simple as they are complex.












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i'm quite determined to visit peng lai when i go back this time round. not very eager, but since i am in yantai, i should just go. 'cos peng lai's like the place to visit if you are in yantai! plus i already have company! =)

you know how things just simply fall in place when you don't expect them to be. life is as queer as it is sane.

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